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Elara

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Since: 08-15-04
From: Ferelden

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Posted on 12-22-11 02:56 AM Link | Quote
My paternal grandmother died last night from a combination of copd and emphysema. She was the grandparent that I was closest to, and I feel rather odd... to be cliche, it is like there is a hole now. We knew it was coming, and I know that it is good because she is no longer in pain... but I still feel a tightness in my chest and the urge to cry alternating with a profound feeling of... emptiness. I have been having trouble keeping food down, as normal when my nerves are this shot... previously only really bad breakups got that reaction.

There is so much that I want to say, but I have no idea how or to whom. I was so young when my other grandma died, and I only saw her a few times... but this one was a fixture in my life and I am taking it much harder as a result.

My dad said he might fly me out for the funeral but we don't know yet. Ben said he would come as well if I wanted him to, which I appreciate. I really wish that more of my friends were around right now... I could do with the distraction.
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Since: 08-21-04

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Posted on 12-22-11 03:01 AM Link | Quote
My condolences to you. I wish there was more I could say.
Rogue
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Since: 08-17-04

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Posted on 12-22-11 05:49 AM Link | Quote
I'm so sorry, Crystle.

You're definitely missed out here. Though I wish it were under different circumstances, it would be great to see you if you come out and have the time.
Elara

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Since: 08-15-04
From: Ferelden

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Posted on 12-22-11 06:13 AM Link | Quote
I would enjoy that. Ben and I were talking about using the opportunity to visit with people so to not make the entire trip a somber occasion.
Katana

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Since: 08-15-04
From: Philadelphia, P.A.

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Posted on 12-23-11 03:01 AM Link | Quote
Originally posted by Elara
I would enjoy that. Ben and I were talking about using the opportunity to visit with people so to not make the entire trip a somber occasion.


I hope you can get as much cheer out of the trip as possible. I'm so sorry hun. It's not easy, but I'm glad you're utilizing some outlets rather than internalizing it all. I wish there was something I could do.
Belial

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Since: 01-29-05
From: New Zealand

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Posted on 12-23-11 05:36 AM Link | Quote
I'm sorry to hear about your grandmother. I'm glad you're able to take comfort in that she is no longer suffering, though I've no doubt that it still hurts. Losing someone close is a terrible feeling... and I completely relate to the "hole." Best wishes to you and a safe flight to and from California.
Elara

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Since: 08-15-04
From: Ferelden

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Posted on 12-25-11 09:04 PM Link | Quote
So we got here safely and it is so surreal being back. It is super warm to me and the dryness is making me cough. I am so looking forward to seeing people though! Downside is that my being kinda sick reduced the effectiveness of the sudafed I took to keep my ears from going nuts on the plane. Gods it hurt! But at least I can hear.
Rogue
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Since: 08-17-04

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Posted on 12-27-11 01:44 AM Link | Quote
So we're all on for Thursday? Brandon and I are open and up for anything.

Elara

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Since: 08-15-04
From: Ferelden

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Posted on 12-27-11 01:41 PM Link | Quote
Looks like it. Ben created a facebook event thingy for Rockbottom to get a better idea of who all is coming and I added your names to it. Rosy said Pat might be in town? That would be neat.

We are going to the zoo today with his dad since he has free passes... Ben just woke up so we should be on the way soon. I've confirmed that I hate driving my dad's Saturn Ion... such a stupid car!

I've been asked to say a few words at the funeral... I have to think about that today and just what I want to say. Kinda nervous to tell the truth.
Rogue
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Since: 08-17-04

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Posted on 12-27-11 02:08 PM Link | Quote
Originally posted by Elara
I've been asked to say a few words at the funeral... I have to think about that today and just what I want to say. Kinda nervous to tell the truth.

You'll do great, honey. Since she was the grandparent you were closest with, you'll probably have a lot to say.

I don't want to get cliche, but speak from the heart.

Elara

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Since: 08-15-04
From: Ferelden

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Posted on 12-28-11 03:30 PM Link | Quote
Sitting in the funeral parlor right now and nerves are setting in again. When we first got here I couldn't go into the room. I still can't be near the casket for too long or my composure cracks.
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