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Xeoman

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Since: 08-14-04
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Posted on 08-24-06 08:53 PM Link | Quote
Yet, another [Hey I hate shit] thread from me again!
(lately)

So today was going great. I got to sleep in until 10-ish, I was reimbursed a good amount of money from my mom for school, today was pay-day, I was scheduled to work a good 12-7 shift today. From there I don't know what happened. Today was the last day my Assisstant Manager will be working at Jiffy Lube, but he may come back in 3 weeks, but he pretty much found a better job. I've worked with probably 20 or so managers in my time at Jiffy Lube, in just a year (used to have a lot of Trainee's). He was the best manager I had ever worked with, and truly could be a reason for me to quit (him quitting). Well, turns out he couldn't close. Family issues, and his father in law was having surgery so I completely understood. He leaves, then what do you know ... I'm doing half the fucking work again. I have to bust my ass doing more things that I should, just like old times. Then what do you know? I clean the whole damn lobby and mop the entire upstairs by myself. I've got people getting DOLLARS more than me, and I'm doing twice as much as they do. I get off work and some retard almost backs into me while driving. Then I get in a small street where sometimes only one car can go through, I stopped to let THREE cars go by me. Who waved? Fucking nobody.

Ever since I got in a car wreck, I get on edge while driving so easily. I'm not a wreckless driver, and I don't drive faster or anything, but I'll start sitting there and just curse to myself like I were in an arguement with that person. Then I get home, walk by my parents when they try to talk to me, and take an entire shower and just can't stop thinking about this bullshit. This is a repeated process that has gone on for about 2 months now or so.

I mean the smallest things can be huge for me these days. Customers, dumb shit on this board, dumb shit with friends and other employee's. Maybe its all this stress with just now getting into college, possibly getting a new job, and whatever. But I'm sick of this. I've been getting so pissed off lately, too easily and I can't get it off my mind often.

I mean, do I have a problem? Is there something like Internal Anger Management? An egg does not stay sealed forever. Eventually, I'm going to snap. Maybe I'll yell at my parents, maybe I'll tell General Manager at Jiffy Lube to fuck off, maybe I'll tell an annoying customer to fuck off. I can't wear a fake smile for the rest of my life, and I can't always hold these feelings in. Someday I just think I'm going to snap.

I know my moms side of the family has had cases of severe depression, but its not like I don't want to be alone, or just sit around doing nothing. Hell I WANT to be with friends as much as I can. But so far I'm not liking my college, and as some people at my work has said about the specific school I'm going to ... its boring, people just go to get credits. I really don't think I'll be making any new friends this semester. Maybe my life is just too boring now or something, I don't know.

I have nothing else to say. Just what the hell.
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Posted on 09-10-06 05:07 AM Link | Quote
I have a problem myself where I get pissed at the smallest things. Mostly it's because I'm tired. Like if it's later in the night, I'll get pissed at my computer if it lags, stupid stuff like that. Try getting more sleep throughout the day. That'll make you more stable.

As to relieve the stress, there are many things you can do. If you want to do it in a physical manner, go out and buy a cheap pillow, and just obliterate it. Punch it, body slam it, cut it, do whatever to it. If you want to just remove it from your mind, write it on paper and burn it, or talk to a counselor of some sort. There are many things you can do. Most of them you may not want to do, but it's better off then going ballistic and ending up in a prison of some sort.

I hope this was of some help.
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Posted on 09-10-06 09:41 AM Link | Quote
I doubt your problem is depression, more of a stress related of doing more work than everyone else and not getting the recognition that you did those actual jobs. If your college and home life are not 100% dependant on the income you get from Jiffy lube then just quit. Take a small vacation away from work and focus on college for a while. When you feel you can control you life better start looking for another job like wallgreens, cvs, etc.

Have you even talked to your parents and manager at Jiffy Lube about how you feel? Being able to tell what is pissing you off will let a lot of steam out.
Xeoman

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Posted on 09-10-06 02:32 PM Link | Quote
I take it I was just having some pretty stressful times when typing this up, but things have been a lot more relaxinng now. I'm only working Saturday's and Sunday's, and then I have school Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. So my schedule is pretty loose and I have a lot of time to relax and whatnot.

Originally posted by HoboConductor
Have you even talked to your parents and manager at Jiffy Lube about how you feel? Being able to tell what is pissing you off will let a lot of steam out.


I would, but its just one of those situations where I'd say "You'd just have to know him". He may be nearly 40 years old, but he's pretty immature, and all of us at the store have known about him constantly taking money out of the drawer. He has a very sick twisted sense of humor, and constantly makes fun of our salesman's girlfriend and there's been a few times where they almost went at it (he just needs to know when to stop). I also came into work today to hear apparently someone got in the store last night, and supposedly knew the combination to the safe and took the money. Well, what were all of us joking about today? "It was Brian, obviously" (our manager).

I probably would have brought this up to my Assisstant Manager, whom I've mentioned in this thread already, but he's only working maybe once or twice every two weeks now, so he's just not around to do much. He pretty much ran the store though, which is pretty sad.

Really though, just my type of personality ... I'm not really someone who'd go to anyone to talk about things. It just kind of one of those things "Its how I am". I've never liked the idea of counseling for anything.

In the end I think I've just been pretty stressed out lately, but I've been relaxing a lot lately so things are going somewhat better. Still trying to get that job at Best Buy.


(Last edited by Xeodeus on 09-10-06 05:34 PM)
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