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Truth/Serum Cheep-cheep Continued Harassment.         Since: 03-07-05 From: In pieces Since last post: 6081 days Last activity: 6052 days |
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| Thanks Chris.
Eh... I'll reply more this weekend, when I'm not exhausted. Lot's of stuff going on as always though, so it may or may not be a long post, we'll see 
*hugs everyone* |
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Truth/Serum Cheep-cheep Continued Harassment. Since: 03-07-05 From: In pieces Since last post: 6081 days Last activity: 6052 days |
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| I just wish... That someone was there,
To hold me when I. fell. down. I just wish, that I wasn't alone, When your words brought. me. to frown. I just wish.. That I wasn't alone, when I fell down to my knees. I just wish... It was a dream, oh god, please no please. I just wish.. That someone was there, To tell me, "It's.. O-kay." I just wish.. That someone was there, When you left me.. that day. There are things in this world, too hard for me to bear. There are things in this world, That I can't stand to hear. There are things in this world, That my heart truly fears. There are things in this world, That can bring me to tears. I wish. That I wasn't alone, When you brought. me. down. I wish. That you were still here, And that I was still. your. own. I wish. That I had somebody there, When I started. to. cry. I wish. That this never happened, Why did this happen to me, oh, why? I wish. That things hadn't, Gone this way. I wish. That you were still here, Standing next to me today. I wish. I wish. I wish. I wasn't alone. Oh god, oh no. Not alone. |
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Truth/Serum Cheep-cheep Continued Harassment. Since: 03-07-05 From: In pieces Since last post: 6081 days Last activity: 6052 days |
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| Hey, happy thanksgiving everyone!!!!
I didn't see a thread for it, so I decided to make one. So what all did everyone do for thanksgiving? Anything out of the usual? Anything special, anything funny happen, or stuff like that? I've got a few stories to share soon when I've got more time to post, maybe tomorrow 
Anyhow HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!!!! ____^
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Truth/Serum Cheep-cheep Continued Harassment. Since: 03-07-05 From: In pieces Since last post: 6081 days Last activity: 6052 days |
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| Wow.
No offence, but you're an aweful hateful and pessimistic group here. In my own defence, Holidays are what you make them out to be. To me, and my family and way of life, thanksgiving is supposed to be a time to spend with those who you care about, having a good time, eating good food, and sharing in the warmth of eachother's presence and caring. My family has always gotten together and invited close family friends, have good times cooking just as much as eating, talking about things, and having a good time. Such as Randy. Randy is an old man who looks ageless. I've no idea how old he is, he looks ancient, but always has enough energy to get around and hasn't changed at all as long as I've known him. He always comes over to my family's place for holidays, and he was there with them this thanksgiving as well. Whilst unfortunately I was not at home this year, I was invited to one of my senior's places for the holiday, and had a very good time. Regardless of what the holiday started out as, that doesn't matter. Most holidays are not what they were really meant to be anyhow. To me, thanksgiving is a time to be thankful of what you've got, because it could be worse. You should spend it with people you care about, if that's your family, so be it, if it's your friends, than that's what it is. Due to situations, I've taken in several of my best friends for periods of hard times in their lives, and we spent it together, just as if they were part of my family, and now they fairly much are in most respects. I don't know what it is that makes you people feel obligated to visit people you don't like. If you don't like them, you shouldn't go. It's not about social agenda. At least it's not supposed to be. I don't know what havoc I'm causing here, But honestly, I'm ashamed of some of you. You should try to make the best of things at all times, especially times when you should be happy more than anything else. I might be biased here, but that's my own right to be so. People out there are losing the most important things to them every day. Some people lose someone close, just as my friend just did on thanksgiving day, and some people are going through hard times. I know for one, I'm very happy to have what I have, and I'm even happier to hear that one of my childhood friends growing up just came back from Iraq alive, and that my other best friend is still alive. That's what I was thankful for on thanksgiving. The fact I have friends out there that are more than friends, they've attained a level of family to me, and that means more to me than anything else in the world. Thanksgiving is a time to be happy. I was thankful for what I have. And I was thankful that someone brought me in for the holiday when I had nowhere to go up here at my new station. If you have nothing in your life to be thankful for, then either you're taking far too many things for granted, or you've lost everything including your own sense of self love. I'm sorry, but reading through some of these replys hit a very unpleasant cord with me. I'm not trying to bring everyone down. But I wanted to say what I had to say. I apologize to those who read through this and had nothing to do with what I have had to say. (Last edited by Truth/Serum on 11-24-06 10:00 PM) |
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Truth/Serum Cheep-cheep Continued Harassment. Since: 03-07-05 From: In pieces Since last post: 6081 days Last activity: 6052 days |
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| Mostly what I'm ashamed of is people mocking the holiday and what it should mean.
I don't go around mocking Quanza, Hahnica (however it's spelled, I don't know) Christmas, 4th of july, easter, or whatever holidays people have in their own countries. I just don't like mocking things that people could find offensive to do so. Respect is something very important to me, and though I don't always show it, some things are more sensitive to some people than others, and I try to avoid saying things to put down things of any sort. Criticism and disrespect are somewhat different if you ask me, and I took that as mostly just disrespect for the holiday. Perception is 90% of reality I suppose, and that's just how I took it. Especially since I opened this thread hoping to see happy people. Not people wanting to scorn and make fun of a holiday. I apologize for having snapped, I guess I've had a bit of a rough week, but I still stand next to my statements. SO. Back to the topic, does anyone have any GOOD or FUNNY stories to share? I was shot in the face by a bottle of cider, oddly enough. Left a little cut on my cheek which I noticed later, but I was just walking carrying the bottle, and POW. I was kinda surprised. I couldn't stop laughing though
That, and of the large box of Cider we bought, one of the bottles, Unopened even now, it only has like, maybe one ounce of liquid in it. Very odd, and kind of amusing, with the exception of the fact it's somewhat costly. Though it's interesting looking. |
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Truth/Serum Cheep-cheep Continued Harassment. Since: 03-07-05 From: In pieces Since last post: 6081 days Last activity: 6052 days |
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I'd probably use it to boost what I give to SETI and this other one that is trying to make Space more open to the public and less controlled by the government. I don't remember it's full name though, I'll have to go dig through my paperwork  It had a long name 
Science! |
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Truth/Serum Cheep-cheep Continued Harassment. Since: 03-07-05 From: In pieces Since last post: 6081 days Last activity: 6052 days |
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| That's good! I like it.
Was it for anything in particular, or just random artistic burst of creativity?
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Truth/Serum Cheep-cheep Continued Harassment. Since: 03-07-05 From: In pieces Since last post: 6081 days Last activity: 6052 days |
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| I don't think I've ever drunk that much before.
Sure, I'm in the Navy and all that, and yeah, it was just us Navy guys. I had a good time. Had a bit at Wilkie's house, then went out to Habachi's japanese steakhouse. THAT was good. Like, awesome. Salmon Sushimi, and then swordfish steak
OMG, that was awesome. Saki's a bit odd too. And then we got to Gilman's house, Had some Jaeger, Then walked to CJ's house. Where I had like another 16 shots of stuff. Took 4 shots of Bacardi 151 straight. Everyone said it would burn and such. I didn't really think it did, they called me crazy for not using a chaser. Found out I didn't like Tequila shots beyond the slushy thing. Southern Comfort is very sweet, like, almost too sweet. I don't think I've ever been drunk before in my life. Not like that anyhow. I didn't do anything I regretted (Well, took a few puffs here and there from Noz's cigarette) Though I don't think I ever want to get drunk again. I still stand firm I could drink twice as much as anyone and still kick their ass in Halo 1, but either way. I don't like the idea of being too drunk a few hours later. Took like 2 hours after I drank everything to start to really get drunk. Nothing bad happened though. Still, it was weird. Never been like that before, and now I suppose I understand what it's like for people to get tipsy now. Captain and Coke is good, in moderation. I don't know what the point to all this is, I just felt like getting it out. I remember getting drunk dialed by friends over the summer (no names), and now I understand what they were going through. Though, it was nice not to feel like shit about what's happened for a few hours. Anyone have any stories of the first time they got drunk? I'll put some up once I remember the rest of the stuff that happened last night. More to come later. (Last edited by Truth/Serum on 12-09-06 08:19 PM) |
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Truth/Serum Cheep-cheep Continued Harassment. Since: 03-07-05 From: In pieces Since last post: 6081 days Last activity: 6052 days |
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| Honestly, I didn't have one
In orderish, here's what I had. Shot of Southern comfort. Captain and Coke. At the resturant: Saki Gilman's: Jaeger The rest was as CJ's. Tequila slushy Bacardi 151 twice No order for these: Southern comfort Tequila shot two more bacardi 151 shots tequila slushy (finished half of Wilkie's) More Saki Then to finish, I know I had some more stuff And I finished with another Tequila slushy. So yeah. There was some funny stuff that happened. Also, while channel surfing, Linsdey Lohan is FAR too hot than she was supposed to be.. (right when we got to CJ's) She was on some movie, Mean girls, or something, whatever. I'll never believe that the little girl I saw in the movies years ago turned out like she did. Kid actors growing up is always so weird... Also like the girl in Euro Trip. But beyond that, yeah... |
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Truth/Serum Cheep-cheep Continued Harassment. Since: 03-07-05 From: In pieces Since last post: 6081 days Last activity: 6052 days |
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| Hey, no problem, always worth hearing stories
I've discovered, and have been told, that I'm a very social drunk
They said I loved to say whatever was going on in my head, which apparently was a lot. That and I'm a bit loud, rather, not as quiet as normal. That and while I don't slur words, I was at least talking a little bit faster, and a lot more jovial. That, and I was told I was demanding too Not really demanding like demaning, but a bit very direct with stuff. Cut to the chase "Get me a blanket, it's cold here" was one of the last things I said. I woke up thinking they gave me one just to be nice, and then found out that no, the night before, I was very bossy my last half hour of being awake
I have a day off in another day, I'll see what silly little stories I can remember about stuff that happened. Overall, it was a bit of a low key thing really, just some navy guys all hanging out at someone's house drinking adn watching TV and looking around the internet. But it was at least really funny. I had one hell of a good time. Plan on doing it again, but this time without taking more than a shot or two. Noreason let to find what my limits are, just get a little buz and kick ass at halo or something like that Which I Have a bit of a story about for later. |
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Truth/Serum Cheep-cheep Continued Harassment. Since: 03-07-05 From: In pieces Since last post: 6081 days Last activity: 6052 days |
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| This is something I wrote about 3 years ago. I found it around and thought I'd share it. I apologize for my last thread. I tried to edit it and put this in it, but something went wrong
Anyhow, here it is: Ode to a rain drop. As you fall, From your home, All you see is sky! Dark and gray, And hues of blue! Around you... Are your friends. They lead, they follow, From airy origin. Mists and depths All around you charge forth! You fall towards The earth. And fall. You see the valley, As you plummet with A grim yet beautiful Determination. Mountains, Rivers, Lakes, Puddles, Fog, Sky. All welcome your Presence, and none Shall send you away. All are ready for You to come. The mountains you Shall run down. Forming rivers With your comrades, And flow into lakes. Those who fall into The valley find puddles. There you meet and Await eager children's feet To come and slosh you about. Then you rise again, Become the fog, And make your way Once again to your Home, they sky. |
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Truth/Serum Cheep-cheep Continued Harassment. Since: 03-07-05 From: In pieces Since last post: 6081 days Last activity: 6052 days |
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| something that I found again as well.
It was interesting to me, so I copied it down a few years ago. No matter how exotic human civilization becomes, no matter the developments of life and society nor the complexity of the machine/human interface, there always come interludes of lonely power then the course of humankind, the very future of humankind, depends upon the relatively simple actions of single individuals. |
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Truth/Serum Cheep-cheep Continued Harassment. Since: 03-07-05 From: In pieces Since last post: 6081 days Last activity: 6052 days |
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| This is what airplane mechanics call the complaints from the pilots.
Anyhow, here's a list of some funny ones I found years ago. Squawks Problem - Left inside main tyre almost needs replacement. Solution - Almost replaced left inside main tyre. Problem - No. 2 propeller seeping prop fluid. Solution - No. 2 propeller seepage normal. Nos. 1, 3 and 4 propellers lack normal seepage. Problem - Something loose in cockpit. Solution - Something tightened in cockpit. Problem - Dead bugs on windshield. Solution - Live bugs on backorder. Problem - Autopilot in altitude-hold mode produces a 200-fpm descent. Solution - Cannot reproduce problem on ground. Problem - Evidence of leak on right main landing gear. Solution - Evidence removed. Problem - DME volume unbelievably loud. Solution - Volume set to more believable level. Problem - Friction locks cause throttle levers to stick. Solution - That's what they are there for! Problem - IFF inoperative. Solution - IFF always inoperative in OFF mode. Problem - Suspected crack in windscreen. Solution - Suspect you're right. Problem - Number 3 engine missing. Solution - Engine found on right wing after brief search. Problem - Aircraft handles funny. Solution - Aircraft warned to "Straighten up, Fly Right, and Be Serious." Problem - Target radar hums. Solution - Reprogrammed target radar with words. Problem - Mouse in cockpit. Solution - Cat installed. Defect: The autopilot doesn't. Action: IT DOES NOW. Defect: Whining sound heard on engine shutdown. Action: Pilot removed from aircraft. Defect: Pilot's clock inoperative. Action: Wound clock. Defect: #2 ADF needle runs wild. Action: Caught and tamed #2 ADF needle. Defect: Unfamiliar noise coming from #2 engine. Action: Engine run for four hours. Noise now familiar. Defect: Noise coming from #2 engine. Sounds like man with little hammer. Action: Took little hammer away from man in #2 engine. Defect: Whining noise coming from #2 engine compartment. Action: Returned little hammer to man in #2 engine. Defect: 3 roaches in cabin. Action: 1 roach killed, 1 wounded, 1 got away. Defect: Weather radar went ape! Action: Opened radar, let out ape, cleaned up mess! Humorously submitted, Ryan Cunningham |
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Truth/Serum Cheep-cheep Continued Harassment. Since: 03-07-05 From: In pieces Since last post: 6081 days Last activity: 6052 days |
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Simple tweaks from 2 months ago.
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Truth/Serum Cheep-cheep Continued Harassment. Since: 03-07-05 From: In pieces Since last post: 6081 days Last activity: 6052 days |
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| [disclaimer : Author does not take responsibility for reactions to this post. It is both long and possibly somewhat offensive]
Wow. I'm actually going home for a week
So far it's been 9 months since I last saw any of my loved ones. And 9 months before that since I was home. Kinda odd to think I've been gone so long, it's really eerie. Today a year ago I went and spent near two weeks with Kate, which was probably one of the happiest times of my life. Though I don't know how to think about that anymore. I'm happy to be going home this time, I neglected my family and friends more than I should have. I'm happy to be seeing them again. It seems like the time I've spent in the navy has all just been on big dream. From when I left through bootcamp, that was like one long nightmare, never having enough sleep (lucky if we got our supposed 7-8 hours a night) I was never fully there in my head. And through the year I spent near Charleston SC, it seems like it was only an interlude to the time I was on leave with Kate or at home. And now I'm going home again... These last 9 months have been so insane, both on my end and my families, it's like I'll be walking out of a dream into the calm that just so happened to start this week... It's really surreal. I remember last march, last christmas, and the June before I left just like they were yesterday or last week... I still wake up expecting people to be there, but they haven't been. It doesn't seem like I've been gone that long, but it has been. One of my best friends, Cooper, haven't seen him since boot camp. Our leave times haven't matched up. He's been in Japan for a year now starting the 2nd of January. He's been living his life, going on deployments, and doing his thing with people there. I've been where I've been, meeting people and making friends. But it's just not the same. I really don't know how to describe it. I suppose people in college here must understand what I'm talking about for the most part. Slightly different working environment sure, but still. Life seems like it's stood still, in some sort of blurry realm of memory, and now I'll be walking back into the past, but it will have changed. People are older, my brother has started to become more than just a little boy, my friends and family have changed, my baby nephew is almost a year old now, not just the month old he was last time I saw him. And my life's been turned upside down and shaken out since last time I was home. I don't even know where I'm going from here anymore. I'm walking into a mess that hopefully will stay calm when I get home. And I'm not quite sure how to deal with that. Nor am I quite sure how I'm going to cope being there alone this time either, unlike the last 3 times I was on leave. I guess this is my way of saying I'm severely stressed out. My eating habbits are all shot, haven't eaten much lately (Been eating healthy, like mostly just a few veggies for lunch and such) but I've gained like 10 pounds this last week or so  And I'm tired of having dreams and nightmares about certain things.
I just got done crying for a while holding the picture I was given of last christmas.. I suppose I'm still taking all of this really poorly. It's one of the big problems with me, I don't get over anything. And things continue to hurt for a very long time. And a lot of things I've never been able to get over. This just happens to be a bit more.. Painful han anything else. I dunno. This was a bit of a mindless rant. I'm just trying to sort out my throughts a little bit with some help. I toned some of this down in hindsight, but I'm still not sure *puts disclaimer up top* So yeah. If you're reading this, I hope you don't think less of me. I'm hoping I can get some sort of help or positive feedback about things. Mostly I've been told lately to just suck it up, and move on. Magically somehow without any help or knowing how to do so at that. It's like telling a rock to turn into wa statue ithout giving it tools or help in sculpting itself into a work of art. Not to complain, it's just I've been told to do so many things, but no one actually telling me how, or being able to help. Just to do it. And I can't seem to take that anymore. I feel kinda lost. Hopefully going home will be a good thing, seeing my family and friends again. I look forward to that. (Last edited by Truth/Serum on 12-20-06 12:11 AM) |
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Truth/Serum Cheep-cheep Continued Harassment. Since: 03-07-05 From: In pieces Since last post: 6081 days Last activity: 6052 days |
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| *Hugs* Hang in there Army Girl
I know what you're going through and I sure as hell sypmathize. Keep your head up, and have as much fun as you can while you're at it. I remember being down there in SC fo the last year. At least be happy it's winter time and not the summer
That and I'm sure you're making a lot of comrades in arms too Make some good ones and you'll know them for the rest of your life
Happy holidays girl, you be sure to take care of yourself. |
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Truth/Serum Cheep-cheep Continued Harassment. Since: 03-07-05 From: In pieces Since last post: 6081 days Last activity: 6052 days |
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| I suppose finding a goal for my life again is the hard part. I already failed at all the others I set myself up for since highschool.
I look forward to being home again. I leave later today for the flight home. It's just going to be weird. I'm not going to even be able to use my so called bedroom back home... Not anymore after all that's happened. I barely want to even go in there anymore. AT least the couches my mom has are the MOST COMFORTABLE in existance. Several people on the board here can certainly attest to that one
I just gotta figure out a way to be strong, hold my head up, and not be so sorry for myself, though I seem to have been failing at those so far. Just gotta keep on moving. Always moving
I just wish things would actually work out well for once. That would be nice. Just have things work out the way I want them to for once, as far as life turning events go. Anyhow. *huggles* Thanks. Hopefully I don't cry when I get home. I spent enough time thismorning crying over things again It's getting really bad. And I know tons of people have it worse than me and they don't let it bring them down, and that makes me feel worse because it makes me feel selfish and self-involved |
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Truth/Serum Cheep-cheep Continued Harassment. Since: 03-07-05 From: In pieces Since last post: 6081 days Last activity: 6052 days |
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| A bit late but... MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!
I had an awesome christmas time. Got to go home for a week (First time in 9 months) and I saw almost all my friends again. Played a lot of games (mostly halo) and did some fun stuff. Got TONS of hugs and cuddle time with my friends of the female persuasion
All in all, it was an awesome time for me, got to see my family, and spend some time with them and everything. Had a lot of fun. Definitely one of the better christmas's I've had
That, and depending on how things work out in the longer run, things may be getting a lot better for me here soon too. One way or another, I'm a lot happier than I was say two weeks or so ago
I hope everyone else had a kickass holiday season too |
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Truth/Serum Cheep-cheep Continued Harassment. Since: 03-07-05 From: In pieces Since last post: 6081 days Last activity: 6052 days |
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| As far as the room thing went, I ended up staying in my bedroom afterall. It's only been my bedroom since just before Kate got there. (Before that I shared with my little brother at my mom's new place) So it's not like it's something I've had forever.
Though it was a bit hard to do at first. Though I did have a good christmas, so I"m really happy about that one. As far as goals, the navy was never a goal. It was something I did for me and Kate. We had it all planned out. Trying to figure out my own goals now. Still haven't found an aim or perpose anymore, but I'm trying to find something. I don't think I'll ever be able to have that same sense of direction I had back then. Nor will I ever be able to feel hurt that bad ever again either. Part of me has definitely taken a new stance at the world and isn't going to let myself let down quite so many guards as I once had. My trust has been seriously dented. At least going home was nice. I even lost about 10 pounds that week
Seriously.. I think it was all stress related issues. But It's good for me to lose that weight. And I'm going to step up everything from here on out regarding my excercize regimes. Gotta get stronger, gotta look better. Looks seem to be important to everyone, looking healthier and looking better catches more attention, even to people who don't care about those things in the long run. Gotta be noticed first before they can get to know me and all. I may not have failed at everything. But I still feel like I failed at the things that mattered to me. From here, it's mostly just picking up the peices and going with whatever options I've got left or can find. The past is always going to be with me, I'm not one who can dismiss things that have happened. It's one of my worst traits, I know, but it's part of who I am I guess. anyhow, *yawns* Back to bed for now. Gotta get up in an hour for work |
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Truth/Serum Cheep-cheep Continued Harassment. Since: 03-07-05 From: In pieces Since last post: 6081 days Last activity: 6052 days |
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| Just a random idea of mine. I want to see where everyone is from
Here's one, looking at the mountians where I'm from. The peak in the back is Mount McLaughlin. I'll put up pictures later if I can find the ones Kate and I took of it from just on the other side of it at Four Mile lake (My favorite lake, on the backside on the mountain, four miles from the peak. so like, staring straight up at it) She took down photobucket, so I'll have to upload it myself tomorrow. Anyhow, here's a link to something overlooking my home valley: http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/37855525/?qo=42&q=medford+oregon&qh=boost%3Apopular+age_sigma%3A24h+age_scale%3A5 Look at the top one first, and here's pictures Kate (Katana) and I took a year and a half ago from the other side
http://i120.photobucket.com/albums/o181/gearheadwhat/Fourmile6.jpg http://i120.photobucket.com/albums/o181/gearheadwhat/Fourmile4.jpg http://i120.photobucket.com/albums/o181/gearheadwhat/Fourmile3.jpg I live just over this mountain. Next time I'm home on leave, I'll take pictures of it from the valley floor from my family's house
And I'll see if I can't get pictures of my valley from the Manor on the hill by the end of next weekend
This one I found is taken from table rock, at the north end of the valley in central point (closest city in the picture) http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/17166304/?qo=17&q=medford+oregon&qh=boost%3Apopular+age_sigma%3A24h+age_scale%3A5 Tomorrow night I'll put up some more I took myself, as actual images rather than just links
So show me the landscape/city where you're from (Last edited by Truth/Serum on 01-17-07 11:34 AM) |
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